- Sez Kristiansen
To Consciously Fall Apart
Gentle you go now.
Gentle you grow now.
Nurse the wounded places
but make them not a comfort,
for even healing can become a vice.
Practice quiet.
Find a meeting place
between
heart
&
stillness
where one speaks in
lulling tongues
and the other attends
in loving presence.
Bring all your willingness
to the journey ahead,
leave nothing that matters
but take so little
that your pilgrimage
always feels light.
Cry in the language
that all others mourn.
Help them to their feet
from where you yourself
have fallen.
Calm the fear that
causes scarcity
that causes theft
that causes the abandonment
of all possibility -
and know the words
you speak now
breathe life into lungs
long after yours have been eft
Hide seeds in your hair,
damp earth in your pockets,
and light within your heart.
So, you never forget the
ability you have
to feed yourself.
Create a cleft,
a deep chasm from where you
are now and from whom
you no longer want to be.
Make it so
you can
n e v e r
go back…
burning the bridges -
brushing the sand behind you.
Find shelter first
beside the water that flows
downstream towards your passion.
No thirst will befall upon you
when you drink
from the well that your own
hands had to bore.
There’s light ahead.
Go steady now, go quiet and
make mendings along the way
create hurt into tools
and wisdoms into amulets
that you offer to others,
never lesser for the giving
but enriched by it
Weary will become the woman
who seeks to find her way home
but engendered is the one
who knows she never left
and just needed some time
to consciously fall apart.